At the time I declared my marriage over - I was blinded by grass-is-greener syndrome. I was filled with expectation and excitement that the best was yet to come and I would get there by leaving Pat - It's embarrassing to remember some of the things I felt and said during this phase and what I put Pat through. However, it is refreshing and enlivening to look back and see the many ways in which God was at work.
For some months prior, I'd been meeting regularly with two of my girlfriends for discipleship and bible study. A book entitled "Seeking Him" was recommended to us by another friend. So we decided to proceed with this study.
As I previously mentioned, I was pretty much pushing away all of my friends who were going to tell me what I was doing was wrong and hold me accountable - so I went into this book with a very hardened heart and with a great deal of resistance. I did not realize at the time that this book would come to be how God would eventually set into motion the events that lead to my spiritual transformation and the reconciliation of our marriage.
I am going to devote a post to each chapter to revisit the study, dig a bit deeper and journal the lessons learned.
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